Sometimes you really can't tell if they really want to be there or just be there for the sake of being there.

I really wish i could go back to when i was a child. 

Without knowing anything and looking forward to embrace the celebration.

Those days, we laugh like theres no tomorrow.

We talk and keep talking believing that it was all true. We cry asking for forgiveness that is obviously so sincere.

As time goes by, as we grew up and become adult, i doubt soo many things.

After all the unpleasant things i heard i find it hard to believe that neither any of them drop their fakeness self.

I sincerely, i swear im soo sincere in wanting to be soo happy and throw my doubtness out of the window. 

But i just cant.

In my heart i keep asking, how could someone say such a thing to another.

And the another is your own family.

We fight our way through in life to achive happiness but the process and definition of happiness seems to be different to everyone. 

Why words can sometimes hurt the inner soul? 

Why good intention sometimes can mislead others to go against you? 

Why people in my zone seems to get hurt and betrayed? 

3 days of forcing ur eye to open and work.

3 days of nt being able to meet.

3 days of nt able to go out.

I shud get a license and a car.

So i can drive where ever i want on my off and make full use of it. Plus managing time with love one on both side. 

So atleast i dont need to depend on others to bring me out. Hah. 

Ok soon license soon. 

Car, well dream on. 

Ok next.

I dont want to be bother with meeting everyday.

Im gonna go on w/out expectations.

Im not gonna ask

Im not gonna be mad

Im giving you the whole lot of space.

If ure more happy this way, so be it.

But i hope you wont go overboard, and stay faithfull.

Being loyal, in the end thts all im bound to be. Only that.

😔

Some pieces hve drifted..

Im still a girl tho who needs her man.

And you're still a man tho who needs to do what man should.