Send it b4 but nt like this. Im amazed you actually do come up with words tht i hope to hear so long ago. Thnkyou for staying even tho im not as holyshit good as the other awesome girl out there.
Angels♥
09:00
Im sorry bestfriend,
Eventho i promise you nothing will change but somehow it will get different now. I hve no idea tht i will hurt him so much while trying to be ur bestfriend and his girlfriend. Mybe im so used of going on follow e plans with you tht i forgot how he will feel. I cherised you bestfriend but i love him so much to hurt him again with this. I thought tht i can keep up with our friendship while being his best gf but its hard. I messed up. Im sorry tht i can nvr be ur awesome bestfriend like how i used to be. He mean a lot to me. Soo much tht small fights like this make me terribly unstable. I know you will understand, i know he said he dont mind but i realise how much it effect him. How much he actually do mind. Somehow im afraid tht he will do e same thing and i cant do anything bout it bcause ive alrdy done it. Yes, its my mistake. But i nvr meant to hurt him. I sometimes am clueless of my surrounding & mybe thts why it lead to this. I cant handle this awkward atmosphere anymore. I want to tell him tht i wont do it again but the way he look at me differently tht moment, nothing seems to come out from my mouth. Like its stuck in my throat.
Bestfriend im sorry if one day it comes to choosing you or him & i will choose him . Im sorry if one day during ur lowest time i cant be there. Im sorry, because i love him.
I cannot imagine living my life now w/out him.
Im sorry tht one day i hve to hurt ur feelings. Im sorry, bestfriend.
I really am.
& to you, saying sorry can nvr be enough for my ignorant act. I hope you can read this and know how much i am sorry about this.
Im so afraid tht this will change ur feelings twrds me. & if it does, i hve no idea how to react. I really dont want to lose you. Im sorry. I love you as always.
Angels♥
09:20
Ya allah, kau belailah keselamatan dia. Jauhkan la dia dari bahaya. Senangknlah kerumitanya. Berilah dia jalan keluar daripada kesempitan yang kau beri. Kau maha segalanya. Kesusahan kau beri kerna kau tahu seseorang itu mampu menghadapinya. Ya allah, kau tenangkanlah hatinya yg aku tahu sedang gelisah. Kau terimalah doa ku ini untuk dia. Amin
Angels♥
09:31